The Toys

The Collar

Hitting

Harness

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Stretching

Big Red

Rape

If you've been sexually abused & 1/4 girls are abused or assaulted by the age of 18- so it is not uncommon. Also, it's not uncommon for there to be sexual acts that reiterate feelings of abuse to which you are Appalled & disgusted in a way that is hard to describe. I've never tried to research it, if there even is any research that has been done, as to what prompts different acts to be particularly desired & others to be wholeheartedly repulsive to females. As it is, knowing many females who have been abused & fit into this category of those who like disturbing sexual or 'kinky' acts, there is no obvious surface explanation that I've seen or made connection of such. I wouldn't advertise your feelings to anyone you don't trust for unconditional acceptance, as those who've never been abused have trouble finding empathy because they've never experienced such desires. HOWEVER, know that you are NOT alone, NOR dirty, NOR defiled in & by your sexual preferences, so you've no reason to feel inwardly ashamed. I like to be held down, my neck held tight, some pain, anal sex, as well as oral-anal give & take (the latter 3 only by those I am completely comfortable with; none by a one-night stand - as those situations give me more the traumatic 're-feeling' of the initial abuse rather than pleasure). ALSO, note that women who have been abused respond primarily in 2 ways: general or majoritive abstinence and general or majoritive promiscuity. There is a plethora of research on this topic.

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Rough play is actually a temporary time travel back to a place inside us where we did not have a worry in the word. By letting go of everything and embracing the endorphin/dopamine rush, mixed with adult sexual release, it creates a pseudo state of childhood.


 True submission means to always listen, be honest, open, to tell how I feel. Above all else my goal isto please my master, hop­ing that He finds me pleas­ing in all that I do, whether I am in His pres­ence or not.  My Mas­ter knows of my poten­tial, learn­ing more about me in each day I am with Him. He trusts that I will act in accor­dance with what He  tells me to do.  He knows what is best for me and how impor­tant it is that i grow under his teaching. Just the sheer thought of Him or the  hear­ing of His voice gives me strength. I respect  my Mas­ter: His  respon­si­bil­i­ties, His skills, His hunger and needs, and His     con­cern for my safety, my emo­tional, psy­cho­log­i­cal, social,  sex­ual, and phys­i­cal health. 

Used hard (by Emily)

Today has been very hard for me things have come back and it's all messed up things cross over making me confused and unsure of things. I panic as things scare me they are like they happened more then once. I have been very emtional today for whatever reason I do not know.
 [Master's Comment: You had to have sex yesterday with snoring man, even you did not want to, you told me before it would be rape, this brings these feelings]. 

Also have had very dark thoughts today as well thoughts that maybe even scare me.

 I have thought about being tied up and used very rough that Master don't hold back anymore and does as he wishes as that he walks in no hello just grabs me by back of head and I am resisting he slams my face on kitchen counter saying you bitch you just dont learn. My nose starts bleeding and eyes are filled with tears. "Oh my slave you look so sexy blood running down your face get on your knee"s now I get on my knees looking up at Master I am sure he has broken my nose I think what have a done to make him so mad at me. My eyes are swelling up but I look up at him and open my mouth. 
 He unzips his pants and rams his cock in my mouth I cry it hurts I can not breath right out of my nose my blood drips on his cock. 
My slave I will teach you and train you my way I will clean out itouch and phone and if i find programs on there that I haven't installed your in big trouble I want this control you will give it to me . I look up and say thank you Master.
 "Now take your clothes off slave and bend over your master is gonna hurt you even more" and once naked and bent over master ram deep into my pussy causing me to gasp for air and almost makes me fall over grabbing my hips pulling him deep inside of me. He then pulls my hair so head is back eyes looking at him he thrusts so hard I cum so hard, Master follows right after as my pussy grips his cock my dirty little bloody slave I want more blood from you lay down. I lay on the floor and Master takes a razor out and says relax this will make you cum he rubs my g spot I start squirting everywhere and he runs blade down my inner leg I am cummig so hard I can't stop my Master then licks my leg he comes up and his mouth is covered in my blood he kisses me deeply and says "My Slave nothing will ever been hidden from me this is your lesson a tough one but one I want you to make sure that you remember, my eyes have begun to blacken now let's get you I the hospital so you can get looked at remember you fell some of your lessons we will have to lie about as no one will

Story 8 (edited my Master) this is a heavy one

(This story is from another girl but it fits so well I think).

I was raped when I was a teenager. I wasn't a virgin but had only been with one guy who broke my virginity and we were still together at the time. The rape  happened to me when I was working for a manager who was the friend of the family and who got me the job. 

After what happened with the rape, I started cutting myself. It's weird because I didn't have anyone saying cut yourself you'll feel better but when I did I felt a whole lot better, I just didn't want to be in that kind of pain anymore. As the years went by I found myself being really promiscuous. I didn't care who I had sex with or why. Sex was something I needed to be punished for because I needed to feel that pain. It was getting out of control.

We stayed with an uncle for a little while but moved into another place. This uncle was there to help us and show us the ropes on what needed to be done but when I needed rides he asked for sexual favors. I told him I felt uncomfortable. He finally helped me with getting a job at the company where his wife worked. He was my family's only means of transportation so he volunteered to take me to work. On the way to work he would stop at his house and come on to me and touch me. I told him he was an uncle and I didn't & couldn't look at him like that. He raped me anyway. After that rape, I started cutting myself like crazy.

Then I was introduced into the world of BDSM. This way I can have pain, be punished for what I deserved and didn't have to do it myself. I meet people randomly from the internet who are also into this lifestyle. I'm am always the submissive. I want to beat up and humiliated since this is all i know with men. I cry about it afterwards but I deserve to be punished for being so stupid. Sex is not love. Sex is a means of hurting a person. Why am I like this? Should I go back to cutting myself so I won't eventually meet up with the person who will go too far and kill me.  Do I have some kind of personality disorder? I get scared when I'm around a lot of people or people in general because I don't trust them.   I don't even like sex anymore yet I use it as a tool to get beat up and humiliated.

Story 7 (edited my Master)

My Little Girl Emily.

Last time I did meet my little girl the following happened. When I asked her to lay down she resisted. Emily does this sort of thing on purpose, resisting I mean. She gets off on provoking me. She likes me to be rough with her, so she intentionally tries to resist in the hope that I will get pissed off and be more aggressive with her.

"Go ahead and take your place," I asked.

"No," was all that she said with a smart-ass tone.

"Emily, I will ask you again, lay down on the table," I said in a deep, firm voice.

"Fuck yo...."

Before my girl could finish her sentence I had grabbed her hair and was dragging her across the room. I pushed her down onto the table by her neck and slapped her ass a few times with my hand. My dick began to firm. Spanking my girls tiny, white ass always gives me a hard on.

I spun her around and pushed her down on the table, holding her there with one hand. With the other hand, I put her legs in place and secured them there. Now she wasn't going anywhere. Then I moved around to the front and did the same with her arms. My cock was now in full raging hard-on. 

Emily finally lay spread-eagle on the cold wood. Her legs were spread and shackled to two tall, metal poles, just above each ankle. She had on her required 5-inch black strappy heels, which were pointing up in the air. The table was not long enough to support her body, so her head hung off of one end, and her ass cheeks hung just off of the other. Her pussy and asshole were at the perfect height. Both were easily accessible. She could be fucked in either hole and there was nothing the little cock-loving girl could do about it. Many times I have tied her up like this so that a group of men could fuck her and use her repeatedly. Emily's snatch was already dripping wet, wanting to be filled. I walked up to her hole and stuck my dick right in.

"Uuuggghhhh", Emily moaned.

I pulled my cock out, grabbed my riding crop and hit her on the inside of her thigh.

"You fucking cunt, I didn't say you could make a sound." 

With her small body and tits, she looked like a helpless little girl. I had to remind myself that she is a grown woman and loves the abuse that I give her.

I slapped her legs and pussy lips a few more times with my crop, and she cried out again. So I went over to get my red ball gag, and brought it back to her. I walked around to her head and stuffed my cock in her mouth. I fucked her face and continued to give her the punishment she craves.

"Suck my cock you fucking pig," I said.

I pinched her nipple with one hand while I spanked her cunt a few more time with my riding crop. Then I pulled my cock out of her mouth. She held her mouth open, wanting more.

"That's all you get for now you cock-sucking whore," I told her.

I lifted her head up and fit the leather straps around her head, placing the ball in her mouth to muffle the sound of her cries.

Then I walked back around and buried my dick back inside of her fuck hole. Emily moaned against the red ball, tilted her head and took ever inch like a champ. I fucked her hard for several strokes, enjoying the feeling of being inside my little pet. Then I stopped and pulled out again. She looked up at me suddenly in frustration -- I was watching for her expression, as I knew she would.

This time I took my crop and aimed squarely for her clit.

WHACK!

Emily's eyes rolled back in her head, with a look of both ecstasy and pain. Her muffled cry was delayed a bit, but it came soon enough.

WHACK! WHACK!

I hit her clit a few more times. Emily's pussy was positively running like a faucet. I went over to a table in my basement and grabbed one of the butt plugs I use on her. I looked back at my whore. She looked so sexy with her legs forced wide open and tied to the cold metal poles. Her arms were also bound to two other poles. The black leather around her head and the red ball in her mouth completed her look.

I walked back over and put the butt plug in her pussy. I left it there, and used my hand to slap her ass cheeks a few times. Then I pulled out the now-wet plug and put it up against her asshole. Emily's body was made to be used. Anytime I put something, anything, against her asshole, it begins to open and accept whatever the foreign object might be. I slid the plug into her anus and left it there. Then I squeezed my dick back in her pussy and began fucking her hard again. As my balls slapped against her butt plug, I reach down and pulled on her nipples.

"You fucking skank. You like cock, don't you?" I teased. 

Emily looked at me, making eye contact, and nodded her approval. As I fucked her hard, my stiff cock sliding in and out of her wet cunt, I leaned over her and spit in her face. The white spit looked like sperm across her nose and cheek. She lifted her head up as if she wanted me to do it again. Of course I did not. 

With the plug in my whore's ass, I continued to ram my dick in her and twist her nipples. She gave out a long, shrill scream as she came on my cock. Unlike other masters, I never hold her back from cumming. It turns me on to see her get off. She can cum as much as she wants. Her warm, wet walls constricted hard onto my shaft. I could feel her pussy flinching around me. I continued to fuck her until she had finished her orgasm.

I walked back around to her head and looked down at her.

"If I remove your gag, will you promise to be quiet?" I asked.

Emily nodded that she would do as I ask.

I took the gag off of her, and then before she could relax I picked up my flogger and hit her across her bare stomach. Of course this was a setup, because wasn't expecting it. I knew she would cry out. 

"Aaaaaaaahhhhg!" My slave cried out.

"What? You lying fucking whore!" I scolded her. "You promised to stay quiet. What am I going to do with you?"

With that I pulled Emily's hair so that her head came back and I put my dick in her mouth once more. This time I did not hold back. Soon my balls were resting on her eyes as my hard dick was all the way down her throat. 

"You can't take all of me?" I asked. "That is not my fucking problem. "You are the cocksucker. Suck my cock you girl!"

I continued to force myself down into her throat until her eyes began to tear up. At the same time I hit her again on her chest and titties with my flogger.

"Make a sound NOW, you fucking cunt!" I dared her.

Being the submissive pet that she is, she did her best to not make a sound. I pulled my prick out of Emily's throat and moved up to sit down on her face. When I did she coughed and gasped for air.

"Eat my ass you nasty whore," I told her. 

Emily's tongue licked and slurped at my asshole. She did not dare to stop, or to speak. I dropped my flogger and reach for the rising crop. Her tongue jerked as I struck her pussy lips. I hit her about four or five times. I could tell from the way her body was tensing that my fuck-toy was about to cum again. So I changed my mind and put my dick back into her mouth, all the way to the hilt. But I continued to spank her pussy and clit with my crop. 

My little girl toy came all over herself. He ass was filled with a butt plug. Her mouth was filled with my penis. And she felt the sting of my crop on her pussy and thighs, Emily's body convulsed with pleasure. Her pussy juices ran out of her as she came. The only sounds you could hear were her breathing, the slap of my whip against her skin, and her choking on my dick. I let her ride the wave out, trying not to cum myself. She was turning me on so much and I was holding back. Finally, I stopped whipping her as her orgasm subsided. I removed my cock from her mouth. 

"You are a slut! You exist for the pleasure of whatever man I give you to." You will fuck and suck when I tell you to. Do you understand?"

"Yes Sir," was all that she said, between panting breaths.

"Who are you," I asked, just to remind her.

"I am your cock-sucking whore," she replied, giving one of the responses she had been taught to give. 

I walked back around to the front of my fuck-whore. I pulled the butt plug out of Emily's ass. I stood there, in front of her with my hard dick between her legs. I looked Emily in the eye and held the head of my cock at her asshole. As usual, it opened just a bit. I was always amazed at this being her natural, involuntary reaction. My dick was dripping with her spit, and I pushed. I slid into her asshole with little effort. I did not hold it there but rather immediately began fucking her ass as hard and as fast as I possibly could. 

Emily looked at me as I fucked her ass, but did not say a word. 

"You may speak," I said. "Tell me what you are thinking."

With that she began to scream and yell and curse like a horny woman that had not had sex in years.

"Oh yes! Fuck my ass. Come on Master, give it to me. Oh Yes! Fuck me harder! Harder! Come on! Give it to me. Oh PLEASE fuck me! That's it. Split my fucking ass open," she screamed.

I love it when Emily talks like this, and she knows it. I continued to plow into her, while pulling on her nipples. She struggled against the restraints on her wrist as her body jerked. Then I picked up the crop from beside her on the table and smacked her titties, first one, and then the other. Her ass was the perfect angle for my dick and I drilled her ass, balls deep, over and over.

Emily screamed and shouted for joy, loving all that I was doing to her. I could hold back no more and suddenly began to cum. My stiff cock jumped as I pumped my load into her asshole. My little girl moaned with me as she came as well. Her asshole muscles squeezed the base of my dick, in rhythm, draining more cum from my balls.

When I could fuck her no more, I stopped. I slowly pulled my dick out of my slave's ass, to a sucking sound. I walked over and pulled up a chair so that I was sitting between her legs. It is like an office chair, on rollers. I rolled it up and sat there. Emily always looked beautiful after she had been used. She was still tied up, but my cum was running out of her ass and on to the wooden table. She was a little sweaty, and her mascara was running from the tears. She had a few red marks on her thighs and body where I had gotten a little carried away. 

"Would you like to play again later," I asked Emily.

"Yes, please." She said. 

Story 6 (by Emily)

Am I a psycho  your crazy I will let you cut me and have the blood drip from my body as you lick it from my breast and light candles and hot wax drip on my breasts and pussy covering it mmm yes use me take away this pain master as I get on my knees and beg for you to give me pain I will worship you and be yours forever just take this other pain away from me and I feel nothing just crave and serve you master hit me harder and harder mmmm don't stop as tears run down my checks take it all in a room of darkness and yours to use as u please as you wish

Story 5 (by Emily)

Mmmmm I have dreamed about you fucking my throat raw drool running out of my mouth my eyes begging for it to stop but you continue on tied up so I can not push away pussy so wet for the forcefulness of my master my master then puts a little bit of Vicks on clit it burns but at same times makes pussy very wet master clamps and ties breasts up and hook in ass being pulled two ways master fucks his slaves mouth again so hard his balls hitting her chin she cums from masters cock in her mouth he rewards her by slapping her ass her pussy juices running down her legs he unclamps nipples and slides needles in he is using her so much today taking hook out of ass he spits on her ass sliding his big cock in opening her ass wide she knows she's to beg to taste her ass on her masters cock as he fucks her hard flicking needles every once in awhile oh master please please let me taste my ass off of your cock he pulls out tasting it and cleaning it she begs for more please master

After doing this 5 times her master explodes in her mouth he rams cock deep in her mouth making cum slide down her throat coating it

As he pulls the needles out her nipples bleed he licks the blood and then he bites her nipples very hard cum for me my baby he says tugging at her nipples making them hurt and ache mmmmm thats it my baby girl relax let the pain bring you such pleasure on the verve of cumming her master slides his cock in her soaking pussy bringing her instantly to a full o she squrits everywhere Ty master

Story 4 (by Emily)

Being in a room that is dark and can not see anything it's so dark

But I am naked and I can feel cold steel against my body

I am actually handcuffs and legs spread wide open with spreader bar

Handcuffed to a steel fence that is attached to a wall

And mouth is held open with that thing I showed u in pic earlier

I then feel warm breath on my face and neck and breasts

And then I feel the hardest. Slap ever

And then I hear two words whispered into my ear you bitch

Then I hear a zipper being undone

And next thing I know a cock is being rammed into my mouth

I am choking and gagging

It feels like their cock will come right through the back of my throat

I can't breath I am gasping for air

Then he pulls him cock out punches me in the mouth so hard my lips splits I begin crying I told you bitch no teeth maybe this will teach u

Then the light is turned on I squint I can't see clearly light is so bright

I see something shiny I front of my face

As my eyes focus I see it's a knife

He runs it down my cheek and down my breast

Stopping at my nipple

Sticking the point In nipple a bit blood slowly starts running out

Moving down to my tummy to my pussy running blade down

I am so wet the knife has my juices on it

The man takes the knife and licks my juices off of it

Mmmmmm he says

You taste very good maybe I should let my friend try you i shake my head no its bad enough he's here with me oh you don't like that idea but look at your body blood coming from mouth and nipples mmmm what a treat you are

He then rams his cock in my mouth again no teeth or it will be bad for you I feel him grab my hair pushing deep and hard

Then after 5 minutes he reaches down and he slides his hand in my pussy mmmmm

It slides right in as I am so wet

Then he helps turn me around ass in air and slams his cock in so hard it makes me see stars

As my ass is raped I am beaten I start begging for more through the gag

Oh baby he says what is that I can't hear you louder. I scream as loud as I can more please more

Just take me make me yours own me don't let me go every show me that you have broken me I say as I am close to cumming

He says oh baby I do own you i have always owned u problem

Was u just didn't know it yet or was ready to accept it and no worries your not going anywhere I am breeding u and then I have someone special to deliver our children and the pain will be so good and pleasurable as we both take you as ur in labour and after labor I am gonna break u right now and when I am done I will have you kissin my feet an you will only listen to me no one else your love for me will be so amazing

Story 3 (by Emily)

So I was thinking that one day I am washing

My hair wearing high heels and have butt plug in you are at work and you. Come home early I have music so loud I do not here you come in I am wiggling my ass as I wash my hair and butt plug is in there nice and tight

You stand there watching me your cock getting harder by the minute

It takes great control for you to not just grab me

U let me get all the soap out of my hair and I grab towel and start wrapping my hair up this is when you grab me and spin me around your hard cock is already out you push me to my knees open you say as I am going down I open my mouth and you ram your cock into my mouth

Suck me like I have taught you you say to me, I suck so tender and you control my pace

Going slow the faster gagging me you love hearing me choke and gag on your cock the make up i am wearing starts running from my tears

You want to just pull it out and then slam it right back In making me scream

You say suck I didn't tell you to stop even if it hurts what I do to you keep my cock in your mouth and do not bite

Mmmm you taste so good master

Please more 

You hold my head deep on your cock I feel like I can't breathe

My hands are trying to pull away on our legs You hold me tighter,Not yet you say to me relax,

I slowly stop freaking out bring my breathing under control

You feel my drool all over your balls and cock

That's right baby you never know when I be home and just take what I want and see fit for you

You slap my face, Tears start running down my cheeks, Your hand print is on my face

And You pull me by your hair into the bedroom

Yes and do you want to tie me up hands above my head and legs tied and spread wide, So you tie me up that way and you bring out the whip

I see it and begin to beg you no please master,You walk over and see my pussy is wet, "Oh baby your pussy tells me something different it tells me you really want this"

You hit me once

I cry and scream

Shut you say to me take it or I will use mouth hooks to keep mouth open wide

You hit me again

I can not control It I scream and cry

You place mouth hook in my mouth lookin at me you say you derserve 6 more now take what I give you

As you hit me again I feel my skin break and blood starts running down

Oh wow my baby you are bleeding for me your master what do you say

I saw Ty master

Then you hit me again

I feel my legs getting weaker My pussy juices are now running down my legs

You hit me and with one more hit to go you come around and look at me

Drool is running down my face I look truly used

Oh my slave you have taken this so well

One more hit and then I shall comfort you

One more hit and then I shall comfort you

But I warn you this one will hurt the most

You hit right across my ass

My legs give out the only thing keeping me up are the restrains

I can not stand up you undo my arms and I fall rest of way to the ground

You undo my my legs and pick me up

You lay me down my eyes. Look at you

I try to talk

You shhhhhh me

You open my legs butt plug still in

You slide your cock in me

Fuck hold my legs and fuck me so hard

I am whimpering

You tell me how this is what life will be like with you

And there is no escape

You go faster and harder

As my eyes roll back almost gonna pass out u hit me stay with me till I fill you

Then you explode deep in me and pull out and instantly cover my pussy with duct tape

Suck me clean your master then u may pass out

You feel my lips and how weak I am u see I am struggling to stay with you

You feel my lips and how weak I am u see I am struggling to stay with you